Wednesday 8th June 2016
I have a huge obsession for cardigans. I must have about 100 of them. I even have a wardrobe that’s solely for my cardigans.
I think the reason I have so many is because I feel it covers up a multitude of sins. I find that they are my security blankets which I can hide behind and take wherever I go.
I would rather be hot than take them off. If I do take them off I feel totally exposed and self conscious.
Over 50% of them are black and I have multiples of exactly the same ones.
Most of them I buy are big too. I feel that with them being big and dark they don’t show off all my lumps and bumps.
For the last 4 days with the weather being warm I took them off. I would never have done this before.
I did feel self conscious at first but it is getting better the more times I do it.
It won’t mean I will never wear a cardigan again but hopefully It will mean I will only wear them for warmth and not as a security blanket.
Start weight 21st 5lbs
17st 2.5lbs. 0.3lbs⬇️. 58.5lbs⬇️total
Start weight 135.6 kg
109.1kg. 0.1 kg⬇️. 27.5kg⬇️total
Lol – totally relate! I have the same thing with shrugs. And lately i havent been using them as much to hide which tells me that something major is changing about how my body.