24th February 25
Trauma
I am one of those people who loves true crime documentaries. I especially like them when there is a murder involved. It’s not the murder I like so much but I am fascinated by how it is solved.
Matt very often sees me watching them and he asks why I like them. I think he thinks I’m strange but apparently I’m quite common as they seem very popular shows to watch.
The other day Matt sent me an instagram reel which showed a doctor warning that someone finding relaxation in true crime content may indicate a deeper connection to trauma!
I asked Matt if he thought I had trauma? He replied “no, I’m more concerned that you are getting ideas for what you will do to me!” I laughed but I can see why he is worried – in most of the shows it’s the spouse who did it!
The reason why I find true crime so interesting is not because of the violence (that is the sad part, especially knowing it’s real) but because of the resolution and the solving of the mystery. There’s something satisfying about watching chaos turn into order, about seeing justice served, about knowing that even in the darkest moments, there are people working to bring the truth to light.
Today I had some microneedling done – the objective being to cause trauma to my face so when creams are used it goes deeper.
It made me think about the idea of controlled trauma, like the microneedling. We willingly go through small amounts of pain, knowing it will lead to healing, to something better. Maybe that’s how some of our emotional trauma works too. We can’t erase the past, but we can choose to confront it, to work through it, to let it make us stronger rather than define us.
We all carry wounds, some visible, some hidden but maybe, just maybe, healing comes when we stop ignoring them and start allowing ourselves to process them.
