Year 3 week 41
8th – 14th October 2018
This week has been a really busy week. I have had quite a few places to go. One day I had to get to Manchester. Usually I would drive myself but as I can’t drive at the moment it meant I had to catch the train.
I was going with another lady and we worked out that she would be best getting on the train nearest to where she lived and I would get on a couple of stops later nearest to where I live.
I have been on a train before but it isn’t a common occurrence. When I do it’s always with other people and they lead and I just follow so I have never had to think what train, what time, what platform I need to be on. I have always relied on the other person to sort it.
If I think about it, it is probably a bad thing for me to do this but I also think it’s habit. All my life that is what I have done. I have gone on lots of holidays but I have never arranged one. I have gone on lots of day trips but never figured out how to get there. I have always relied on others to do it for me.
So this trip to Manchester was very unusual for me because I had to get myself to the right platform and on the right train with no help from anyone. Ok, Matt helped a bit – he told me where to go and he booked the ticket.
I have to say I really did have some anxiety about it. I was worried I would go to the wrong platform or end up on the wrong train!
Just before I left Matt he said he was worried about me. I don’t think he had the confidence that I would get on the right train either!
The day before I had to give myself a real stern talking to and tell myself that I was being totally ridiculous. I had to grow up and get over myself.
This anxiety really surprised me because I thought I got over all that a few years ago. It shows how easily things can come back and how often you need to keep things in check. The last place I wanted to do was go back to that insecure, unconfident, anxious person. That talking to was so important.
Anyway, I don’t know why I worried because it was actually really easy. I did get on the right train and I met my friend with no problems at all!
