Year 3 week 38
17th – 23rd September 2018
Last year Matt had a health condition that meant he couldn’t drive. He would have these black outs and no one could explain what they were – not even the doctors. It meant that he couldn’t drive for a year.
I always felt so sorry for him because he was so reliant on other people to help. He is the sort of person who struggles to ask anyone for help and would avoid it until he really had to. I think that year taught him a lot and it taught me a lot too. He is fine now and back driving again.
The reason I am telling you this story is because about 6 weeks ago I got told that I couldn’t drive. For a few years now I have noticed that my eyesight has been getting worse. I was delaying going to the opticians because I knew they were going to say that I couldn’t drive and I wouldn’t be able to until I have a cataract operation.
For the first few weeks it was fine but as time goes on I am getting more frustrated. I think that’s why I was so down last week and I let things affect me.
I feel like my freedom has been taken away. I have been stuck in the house with nowhere to go – it has been mega boring. Last week I let this get to me. But this week I was determined I wasn’t going to let it get to me and I have to say it worked.
It has also meant that I have had to rely on others. Doing things on your own isn’t necessarily the best thing. But asking for help can also be hard.
I still see my nutritionist and lately she has had to come to me. This week I admitted that I am struggling to keep motivated – in fact it ended up me getting very emotional. I think everything got too much with the diet, the boredom from being stuck at home and the loss of my freedom.
It was definitely worth while because Jen or Matt were never going to know how I was feeling unless I told them the situation. That feeling of being alone went the minute I shared it. My motivation has improved greatly since.
The saying ‘a problem shared is a problem halved’ is definitely true!
