Monday 14th November 2016
If someone asked me how tall I was I would say I was tall both ways – standing up and just as tall when I lie down. I would say it because my stomach was so big.
I am however 5’9″. I know that there are a lot of taller people out there but I still think I am a lot taller than the average person.
I have always found my height a problem because my thinking was the taller you are the more you are noticed. I also thought that the wider you are the more you are noticed. So whatever way I looked at it, I felt I stood out.
With me being a person who didn’t really want to be noticed it meant I had to try and find ways to hide. My cardigans were something I always hid behind. I also hid behind my hair too, but my height was something I didn’t think I could hide from.
Recently I have noticed my height a lot more. I have noticed that I can see over everyone’s heads – it’s like they have shrunk or maybe I have grown.
The other day I asked my sister in law if I am taller than normal because I felt that I was. She said “yes you seem to be standing taller – it’s like you have more confidence.”
I never thought I could hide my height but it turns out I did. I use to slouch a lot to make myself look smaller whereas now I seem to be standing tall. It can only mean I seem to have a lot more confidence than I have had before.
If you had asked me last year before I even started losing weight I would have said that all I want is more confidence. I do now feel I have it and I just hope I can keep it and not go back.
