7th January 25
Feeling helpless
Recently my son Jonny went to the hospital for an operation on his leg. At the time he was admitted Matt was still flying home and I was obviously still away.
We knew before we went this appointment was coming up and not one of his parents would be there with him. It was something he’d been waiting for for a while but when the appointment time came in we were both slightly disappointed we were going to be away and couldn’t be there for him.
I managed to ring him before his operation and he seemed fine and Matt had landed so was able to visit him afterwards.
Jonny had absolutely no problem us not being there – in fact I think he preferred it. I however just felt totally helpless. My son was going through this alone and what could I do – nothing!
I hate that feeling of helplessness where there is nothing you can do but wait. You are on edge until you know all is fine and then afterwards shattered because you were tensing every muscle in your body.
I think just being a parent to adult children those feelings come along a lot. They are adults now and they have to sometimes do these things without their parents. But it doesn’t stop me feeling helpless though.
