10th February 25
Embrace the Beige
Today, I met with my nutritionist again, and we talked about ways to improve my mental wellbeing and how changing my eating habits can support that.
She pointed out that I tend to live in extremes – either in darkness or in full colour, without spending much time in between. This year, she wants to see me embrace “the beige.” She wasn’t referring to my clothing but to my mood.
She explained that I have a habit of shutting people out completely, only to swing to the opposite extreme, where I not only reconnect but also share everything with the world. It’s the middle ground, the balance, that I need to work on. Learning to live in the beige means finding consistency and stability rather than constantly shifting between highs and lows.
I did tell her sharing is my accountability and I needed that to force the change it won’t happen without action and going from one extreme to the other means that hopefully I end up maintaining control in the middle.
Drawing a picture a day is helping me. Last year, when someone close to me asked how I was, I would just say “plodding on” – not happy and not sad, just existing. But that isn’t truly living.
This daily drawing is helping me change that. I can’t keep bouncing between darkness and excitement. I need to find stability, to take control, and to start living in the beige!
