Monday 28th November 2016
I think all children when growing up dream of making there parents proud. I know I always did.
I do hear them say that they are proud of me all the time but I have never really believed it. I have never really thought I have done anything for anyone to be proud of.
It was probably my low self esteem that made me think that way.
This year I have had so many people say that they are proud of me. My Mum and Dad have said it a lot too. This time though I believe them.
But I have still struggled to be proud of myself. When I look in the mirror I don’t see myself looking any different from the way I have always looked. I used to look in the mirror and I saw myself as being thinner to what I really was. Now, though, I still see myself as I always have. It can mess with your mind a little.
Yesterday, trying to lift 70lbs of granite made me realise just how much weight I have lost.
For the first time in forever I actually felt proud of myself. I think that must show how much I have changed and how much I am still changing this year.